Without realizing it, fear has played a big role in my life. After I gave birth to Logan I had to deal with a depressive episode. Back then, I finally was given the right antidepressants that actually worked for me. That was also the time I realized that I had lived with fear all my life. Those pills gradually took away the fear I didn’t know I had. When I realized I didn’t have those fearful feelings anymore I felt a freedom that changed my life for the better.
A little help
It helps me conquer the dark cloud when it’s hovering above my head. It helps me go outside and leave my safe haven. It helps me relax and slow down. And that was all I needed, a little help.
Feeling stronger and more confident are goals I want to work at. At facing my fears helps wit that.
In september I’ll be enrolling in Nursing school! I can’t wait. I’m ready to start a new endeavor, learn new abilities and get my brain cracking again. But, I don’t really like needles. Especially needles going in to veins to extract blood. It’s not that I’m to scared to get my blood drawn, but it causes a kind of biological sensation of aversion. As a nurse I will have to deal with needles, so I really need to tackle that fear.
And I want to do that by becoming a blood donor. I registered last week and I have an appointment on April 24th. By facing my fear of needles again and again (when giving blood) I’m hoping I get more comfortable every time.
So I’m kind of proud of myself that I’m doing this!
When I had to give blood to check for allergies or when I was pregnant with Logan I always looked away from the needle. I never dared to look at the procedure but I think doing that is the first step for me.
I’m also thinking about doing a vlog about my first visit to the blood bank. Maybe it will help me by having to focus on something else as well then just that darn needle.
- take little steps when facing your fear
- ask a friend or relative to help you, you don’t have to face your fears alone!
- try to keep perspective: what is the worst thing that could happen?
- think positive: How will you feel when you step out of your comfort zone?
- write down your goals
- treat yourself after you’ve achieved your goals
How about you? Have you faced a fear and how did you do it?
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